#DEMYSTIFYINGENTREPRENEURSHIP #28 QUARTER LIFE CRISIS

Esther Neema: Shooting Expressions

Back to what I know. Still quite unsettled. Two years of this, and I faced with the question. What's the next? I am “wanting to make an impact”? Ideally it should have been the news/production as it would offer me consistency. So, when the opportunity presented self, I pounced on it. I went past all the stages, before I was busted that I don't even know the name of my MP :D. IGNORANCE. Only knew the Dramatic MPs, MPIGs. Considerably, I only noticed things that are presented DRAMATICALLY!!! Such as when watching news, I was probably focusing on hair and styles or shoes.

So, I didn't make the headlines. And I remember being so broken. It was “expected of me”, that I began to expect of myself. Turning this in to an entire spectacle. For the second time I understood what it meant to be so close to “THE DREAM” and have it yanked out of your mouth, when I believed to be “worthy of it” in spite my challenge with ignorance and lack of interest in watching news myself. And as usual for my twenty something year old self, is to go in to the full hysteria of wailing, blowing my nose DRAMATICALLY, inviting the whole village to a feast of, WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME???

For the manieth time, I understand living passionately can make you cry often. Holding a pity party, talk about society problems, the government, the system, life.

Reading Obamas book, I could relate when he said, " for the first time in my life, I felt what I believe artists feel. That they have gone so far as their talents could take them, and now faced with the reality that their dream may never happen“.

I guess, it’s why I was sobbing. To have poured my entire soul. Meanwhile, whilst people were moving on, Esther Neema was heightening her DRAMA. Remember this was not happening to me alone. Out of 200, we had been top 10. So, 190 had been disappointed too. I bet they also believed that was their spotlight. But I just had to make it all about ME, quite the CIRCUS. Being entitled gives you an attitude. Where others see a chance to learn you REACT. You forget that even this moment that you have now, was once a dream. Thus, progress doesn’t happen. Until you realize, “LIFE IS NOT HAPPENING TO YOU, LIFE IS RESPONDING TO YOU”

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